As per usual

Life is a struggle. Once accepted, you can begin to let go of expectations and live a more present life.

I”m in such a cycle of information overload and no action. My energy is low. So very, very low. Getting out of this “funk” would be great. I read so many books and articles on positive thinking and how do do more, break those bad habits, eat like a nutritionist, budget like a pro, etc. And yet, I have accomplished none of that. I know what I need to change, but when it comes down to it, I revert to old habits – things that are easy and I don’t have to think about. My patience has become non-existent. I get mad at the dog for doing dog things. When driving, I get so frustrated that I yell at the other cars. I’m not excited about anything and I feel trapped. I long to be free mentally, so that I can become free financially.

I want to do so much and when it comes down to it I sleep instead. I have no friends because I don’t even want to be friends with me right now. It’s a shitty place to be. I don’t want to bug people in my life with things I can’t make sense of. The fact that I cry at the drop of a hat makes being in public hard.

I know this is all over the place, but I really just needed to get some words out. If, for whatever reason, you end up reading this and have some advice or words of encouragement or are in the same boat – reach out. With so many people on this huge planet. I can’t possibly be the only one feeling this way.

-h

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