Journey of Life

“Until you love yourself and all of your imperfections, you cannot accomplish anything.”

There are no truer words and for some reason, no truer words for me today. The only person in charge of your happiness is you. Once you have come to terms with this realization, life will open up.

Life can be hard. Each person is fighting his or her own battles. If you keep a positive outlook and know that everything happens for a reason, there are no limits to what can be achieved. So, just because bad days happen – it doesn’t mean that you have a bad life. Keep smiling your way through life, be a positive influence on others and have fun! Life is a journey not a destination.

The above quote is from Lucille Ball, by the way.

Skinny vs. Healthy

I have been looking for the right words to say something that has been on my mind a lot. The models in the magazines are skinny, duh. It is always news when a plus size model gets a spread in a major magazine. My issue is this: models are people to look up to, right? Why would I want to strive to be overweight? No, I don’t starve myself nor would I like to be a size 0. I don’t look up to people who take drastic measures to be skinny. However, some people are naturally skinny. That doesn’t impress me.

 I want to be healthy. I want to be fit. I want to look great in anything I wear; but, I want to look even better naked. Why aren’t more fitness models in major magazine spreads? People who are determined, motivated, healthy, and beautiful, not because they were just lucky enough to be born with great genes, but because they work their asses off for it every single day. It doesn’t impress me to hear models or actresses proclaim to eat anything they want and never go to the gym or workout. I look up to healthy, motivated people who are proud of their bodies and are confident enough to admit to working out. Those are the women I want to look up to. Body image is so important and teaching our children that they have to be lucky in the genes department to be looked up to or to be big in fashion is ridiculous.


As I sit in the waiting room of the ER, I can’t help but feel responsible for my friend’s currently broken ankle. She has struggled with weight and I enabled it. We were headed back from the corner gas station with some snacks when she slipped on ice and snapped a bone. If we would have just stayed in, instead of getting snacks, she wouldn’t have had to go through the physical pain of a broken bone or the emotional pain of getting extra people to help her into the ambulance. Perhaps the break wouldn’t have happened if she were lighter. I have been such a bad influence on her. But the only thing either of us can do now is be better. She proved today that she is one of the strongest people I know. I couldn’t be more blessed to have her in my life and I can’t wait to make a difference for both of us. Do you use setbacks as a reason to improve or does it make you pity yourself and become more lazy?

Things can’t be fixed…

…until you figure out what part is broken. It is one thing to know something needs to change, but it something completely different to actually make changes. It is easy to think in an all or nothing sort of way and try overhauling every bad habit one takes part in. However, sustainable change is made through small improvements and better decisions, daily. For instance, I have an addiction to fast food – it is so convenient – I know it is horrible for my body, it makes me depressed, it makes me tired all the time yet it keeps me up at night. Fast food does nothing good for me or my well being – it is just like an abusive relationship that I can’t get away from. Everyday I have the power to make a change for the better. Every time I reach for a Mountain Dew, there is an option for something better.

Quit saying “starting tomorrow” you do not need a new day to make a better decision. Every blink of the eye and drawing of the breath is a new chance to make the right decision. As humans, we will screw up. Just remember, one mistake doesn’t define you and it is not the end-all, be-all sign of failure. Your next opportunity for change will happen soon. Stay strong and believe in yourself!

Negativity Sucks – Let the healing begin, again.

It seems, as of late, that my life has become a mess of breakdowns separated only by working out and sad attempts to pull everything together. Last year I said it was time to get my shit together. Next year I don’t want to be saying the same thing. I have been at my current job for almost a year. I thought it was going to be the change of pace needed to get out of the gutter I had been stuck in. I have been struggling with a breakup for the last year. Yes, a YEAR! I can’t seem to get over it; however, I’m pretty positive that it is me and my way of thinking that has strung everything along. Had I not been in a depressive state off and on for two years at this point, perhaps things would have been different. It is time to look forward and make my life the one I want to live.

Regardless of anything else, I am now ready to make the changes necessary and I think seeing a professional may prove to be a key ingredient.

Let the roller coaster of healing begin while the emotional roller coaster be always on the rise.


I have crazy dreams. Here is what happened last night.

I’m not sure how it all started. All I know is that I showed up to work (my actual job – a rock climbing facility) in running shorts and no shirt. Yep, just a towel wrapped around my top half. I was really struggling to keep the towel up while helping somebody into a harness. At this point in time, the owner walks in – perfect timing, right?! He acts completely normal, and then it fades into the distance and I’m at a golf course on a horse. I have never ridden a horse and was quite excited at the thought. However, instead of getting to ride the horse, I was walking two dogs – a big one (think Great Dane) and a little one (think Chihuahua). Then Lucy, a yellow lab that belongs to the other manager was there. All of a sudden the horse just takes off across the golf course and runs into Lucy! It was terrifying. She was hurt so I went to go take care of her when this slob of a women drives up and asks if I want a ride. I hop in the back seat of this vehicle with the two dogs that I was walking and as we back up, the women almost hits a police car! The cop immediately turns on his lights and attempts to pull us over (still on the golf course, keep in mind). The women leans out her window and flips off the cop saying a few choice words – I’m pretty sure she was intoxicated… Regardless, she gets out of the car as we are still moving and sprints off! I’m still in the backseat at this point with the two dogs and the car is rolling, heading straight for the lake. I scramble to the front seat to try to stop the vehicle and then everything gets fuzzy…hard-boiled eggs…and I’m awake. Whew – what a ride!

I find that a lot of my daily thoughts creep in my dreams; but, I have no idea what any of this has to do with anything. I love dreaming – it reminds me of a great children’s story or something.

The latest venture…

I have decided to document the process of me getting my life back to where I want it. There are many names that it could take; however, I have decided on, “The Boyfriend Diaries.” At least for right now. This is going to chronicle the adventures of being “just friends” with my ex boyfriend, getting my body back in shape and getting the big girl job that I have always dreamed of! I will be posting the back-story soon so stay tuned!

Saving the Turtles

Turtles have always been known as “slow and steady” creatures.  They win races by never giving up and keeping the same pace.  This is unlike hares who go, go, go and wear themselves out then have to take a nap before finishing.  The real-life lesson here is this: rabbits are quick enough to make it across the road without getting hit by fast-moving vehicles whereas turtles may need a bit of help.

If you are one of the many people who care about the well being of turtles and hate to see any of them get slaughtered in their own home by careless drivers, then here are some suggestions to help make your turtle rescue safe and happy for all involved.  A few things to keep in mind when out saving turtles: some are snapping turtles and could be mean; some are dirty because they swim in lakes, sleep in mud and never shower with soap; some are heavy because they eat a lot and live a long time.  All of these things can be hard to deal with.  However, as long as you carry the Turtle Saving Survival Kit* in your car, you will be fine.

The first step in saving a turtle is to find a turtle stopped on the road.  If it is still moving, you might be able to ensure it makes it safely across by turning on the hazard lights and making sure no other cars will come up too fast to go around the turtle.  However, if the turtle is stopped or in his or her shell, then assistance could be required.  Snapping turtles are not afraid of anything especially you so if it doesn’t back down, watch out!   Also, if he is big enough that he scares you, don’t mess with him.  He obviously has lived a long life and has survived without your help to this point.  Small snapping turtles can be dealt with by using the heavy stick from the TSSK.  Either help the turtle along by pushing with the stick or if the turtle will bite the stick, you might be able to drag it gently.  Always wear gloves when touching the turtle is necessary; you don’t want to get sick because you saved a turtle’s life! If the turtle is dirty or has algae on him, the trash bag can be used to pick him up.  This saves your clothes from getting messy.  Do not place the turtle in the bag simply place the bag on his back leaving enough hanging off that his tail end will not come in contact with you.  This does not stress the turtle at all and will leave you sparkling clean.  Once the turtle is safely on the other side use the hand sanitizer or sanitary wipes to clean up, place everything in the used trash bag to dispose of properly and give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done!

*The Turtle Saving Survival Kit includes: gloves, sanitary wipes, hand sanitizer, stain stick, rope, trash bag, 12 inch 2×4 (or some other heavy piece of wood) and road cones.

The Good Life

For those who didn’t know, I am now living the good life.

The good life includes: living with your parents, not paying rent, having your meals cooked for you, sleeping in, having your Dad fix your car and change the oil, shopping and having your parents buy the things you require…

All of these things are great if you like others taking care of you!  However, for those who have been living on their own, it imprisons you and you feel so useless.  A failure.  I spend my days helping out where I can, applying for jobs, and thinking about working out.  I want to be able to live on my own again and buy everything that I want without worrying about how I’m going to pay my bills that didn’t stop just because I don’t have a job.  Life is good; but, it will be better when I figure out a bit more about myself and where I want to be!

Cheeky Solutions

As I begin my morning perusing  through advertising articles, I ran across something that needs to be shared.  An advertising agency name generator!  I know; it is exciting!  My results were weird to say the least until the last click…Cheeky Solutions.  That’s right, Cheeky Solutions.  I LOVE IT!  If I ever start a business, regardless of what it is.  It will be called Cheeky Solutions.  Perfection should not be messed with.  Way to go ad agency name generator available on  Way to go.